making love to this emerging tender indestructible being

Making art
Making love
Making life

Coming
One breath
One stroke
Simultaneous

No past
Except 
The vast past
Here
Pregnant 
Now

All identities
All ways of being
Now

No self
No not self
No other
Not one
Not two
Being
Now

As the old ends, 
nothing works
As the new begins, nothing works
In the moment, 
just the moment

The subtle bold exertion of intention

to fail
queerly
tenderly 
lovingly

to make love 
in the moment
to make love 
to the moment
to make love 
to the art as it emerges
to love whatever emerges

coherent thought falls apart
metastatic
no center
no hold

this touch of 

hand 

of body

this touch of 

pen

pencil

marker

brush

And then

water

pigments

All flow and bleed and blend and move
Energy
Alive

Grief and joy in the same breath
Heartbreak in the flowering
To be new is to kill the old

no center
only fringe

passing sucks
pleasing sucks
covering sucks
let go of normal
be divergent

let go of scenery
let go of realism
let go of making sense
let go of a lifetime of becoming

nothing to work
nothing to achieve

desire
objectless hunger for life
breathe
listen
this moment
this experience
let go of the tight shoulders
let go of the crossed knees
let go of the urge for another gulp of water
let go of yet another book
let go of yet another idea
let go of yet another human to connect with
let go of fear of missing out
let go of fear of missing
let go of fear
let go
let
be